hehehe...

super cute picture of the day!

ahhh!!!!! that is the official face of "grawr"

and now, for my cake I made in cake class:

yay cake! hehehehe

"chi wo"

"eat me"

super cute picture of the day!

you should youtube "knut baby polar bear" he is sooo cute!


other than that...


I have decided to start coming out of my shell...or...try to come out of my shell...it is not working all that great, but I will get there...fear not!

oh! and I am making my second cake for my cake class (pictures tomorrow!)...yup yup!


I don't think that most people appreciate what they have in life.

like, for me...I don't have a lot, and a lot of really bad stuff has happened in my life, but I do have a brother who loves me, and a super cute puppy (pictured below), and sometimes that is enough.

love what you have, for you may not have it tomorrow. Do not strive for more if you can not appreciate what you already have...don't do it. it is bad.

and this is my super cute puppy...

devil puppy

puppy!

awwwww

angry puppy!

happy puppy!

YAY PUPPY!

stupid deleted post.

grawr.

I made a suuuper wonderful post last night...and then accidentally killed it.

you should be sad.

But, in a nutshell:

Weekend: Fayetteville w/ brother.
went to bar: Taylor no like bars.
got to sleep at 4 am each night/morning: Taylor= exhausted.
sad and worried for brother...pray for him.
Played super mario...dominated.


yes. This is what has happened.

and then I went on to say that I thought it was funny that all my friends are either in other states or I only talk to online, and how slightly pathetic that was...

hummm....I think that is all?

yes. and in one week my brother goes away, and in two weeks I go away... :( / :)

blarg. yup yup, this is all...golly, I need a more exciting life.

CAKE

YAY CAKE!!!

it is for my brother, because he is getting his wisdom teeth taken out this weekend...This is my first cake that I have decorated!

BOO!

it's rainy outside...

I like it.

I wish I had rain boots so I could go and be a kid and jump around in the puddles!

oh wells.

I get to go visit my brother this weekend, so that should be fun...

yeah. My life is boring this week. blah.

I still want a baby panda. yes. yes I do.

wow...sucky valentine's day. Try and beat this one:

Here is my valentine's day...

I fly out to see my boyfriend (with a plane ticket I paid for)

I wake up with a headache, so I spend the majority of the day laying in bed with an ice pack on my head, while he sits on the computer...I ask him if he wants to curl up and watch a movie, so I can keep the ice pack on my head and try to get better by dinner time. He says no.

around 7 I get up to start making our dessert (A cookie cake) and then go back to lay down when it is finished. 8 o'clock rolls around and he has yet to start making dinner...

then...all of a sudden, he comes into the room and hands me a rose. I am very happy, and I say thank you very much. He just shrugs.

He then starts getting mad and telling me that I am unappreciative and pessimistic and all of this stuff...he then says "I'm done." and slams the door shut.

I'm confused...I didn't do anything...I don't know what is going on...so I get up and get on the computer, call the shuttle service to take me to the airport (it is now about 10 o'clock at night, and my flight is at 11 o'clock the next day). While I am looking, he comes back in, starts cussing at me and starts telling me to get the fuck out of his house. He just wants me the fuck out.

I look at him and say "I'm working on it. Just back off."
He then says that he will drive me to the airport. So, I say okay, and we get in the car and head off.

While we are in the car, he calls a girl and starts talking about me to her and is laughing and saying that he really fooled me, and he pulled the wool over my eyes the whole time, and all this stuff. I found out that he had been cheating on me for quite awhile...

half way there, he stops at the gas station to "fill up". He gets out and then stands there, and gets back in and starts yelling at me. "get the fuck out of my car. I don't fucking care anymore, get the fuck out." ...

I ask him what the hell is going on, and he hits me.

so...I get out. He drives off. I am stuck in downtown LA, no ride, no money, nothing.

so I start to walk to the airport.

I get there around midnight and get my flight changed to an overnight flight back home.

wow...I don't know what happened...it was all so strange...he just flipped out.

so...what have I learned?

A plane ticket to LA: 220 dollars.
A movie for two in LA: 20 dollars. (which I had to pay for)
Learning your boyfriend is a lying, abusive bastard: priceless.

I did a lot of growing up this weekend. It really sucks, but it is time to move on. I mean...I can't really be sad about it...just confused and pissed off.

plus...I'm the best thing that will ever happen to him. and he knows it.

I thought I was invincible.

I was wrong.

I thought I could handle it.

I was wrong.

I wish I had been right.

I will wait for the consequences.

sick...

uugh.

3 am...puke fest. 102 degree temperature.

9 am...98 degree temperature, acks, but I still go to class...

1:30 pm... 99.6 degree temperature...yet I have to go take a Chinese test at 2.

blah.

me sick. me sad. me pathetic.

haha, fear not! I will get better...hopefully.

Panda obsession...

He has got a lil' fro going on...

Sleepy panda...

awwwwww

he's just cute. Look at his lil' ears!

hahaha

ppst...I see you!

awwww....

hehe

panda attack!!!

okay...sorry. I am obsessed with pandas. I have been for about a week, so bear with me. haha...bear.

cakes, let downs and insane asylums

so...a wonderful decision was made today, a sad occurrence, and a creeptastic adventure.

So...first off, I know that I am scared of going out in public and all that jazz, but today I just let myself down...extremely. I was looking forward to going to this print demonstration at this gallery for about a week or so, I even had a post-it stuck on my wall to remind me. So...an hour before, I start getting really nervous about going, because I don't know who will be there, or how many people, etc...so, I decide that to ease my freak-out, I'll take my camera with me, and go take pictures first...

Little to be said, I sat a few car spaces down from the entrance to the gallery for about an hour, and failed to get up the courage to go inside. I went home.

I hate constantly letting myself down. I just don't have the courage to go do things with other people around, and I don't have any friends that can be like "oh, get over it, and come on." ...so...I don't know what to do. All I know is that I am bummed now.

besides that...the creeptastic adventure...here is my story, and you can think that I am lying, or whatever you would like...but holy crap, this is true.

so...I am driving around, taking pictures before trying to go to the gallery demonstration, and I fall upon this decrepit complex. Of course, for a silly photo-geek I am like "awesome! old buildings!!!" so, I get out of my car and start walking around...and I swear, I don't really know how to explain this, so I will try my best, but I started hearing un-humanly human noises, but I knew that they were only in my head, but that I was not making them, and there was nothing physical around me that was making the noises either...so...that started freaking me out a little...and then this emotion, which I can only describe as "heavy" started coming over me, like, making it hard to breathe, but I was breathing fine.

ack. I know, it sounds so silly, but at the time, I thought that this whole thing was an old school, and it had been condemned. But after getting all these weird feelings (which at the moment I was chalking up to me being crazy and just thinking that things were awkward) I had to leave. I just got scared. I couldn't find the way that I had come in, so I left a different way, and on my way out, I looked back and saw the sign "Department of Mental Health, Psychiatric Institute"...

yeah...odd. I know, it all sounds so silly, and I really don't believe in ghosts, and I still don't. I now just think that emotions can stick to a place, and you can still feel them, even after the people are gone. Maybe I am crazy too...hehe

A side view of the main building..

One of the random out buildings that was near the main fenced in complex. Do you see the face?

looking inside the complex...a little off to the left is a red swing set...everything was fenced in

The welcome sign when you enter off of Bull street

Okay, and the best news for last! I finally signed up for a cake decorating class. I know, I am a loser, but come on! What else is a girl who is too scared to even go into a gallery going to do with her life? haha, so I am really excited. My dream in life is to own my own wedding cake business, and just create awesome cakes all day, and paint in my free time. Yeah...silly, but it sounds perfect to me. hehe...